Have I changed at all from when I wrote these posts 5 years or more ago? Is that a bad or good thing? Am I different? I still see so much of me on those old posts and it makes me a bit sad. Why do what I do?I feel like I am still stuck behind so many of the same obstacles. That can be frustrating. It is frustrating. Why is it so hard for me to open up? I am glad for these little burdens because I am afraid of what large ones might do to me. I want to spill out myself but for whatever reason I never trust anyone enough to do that. That makes it difficult to find relief, release.